['Iruma-chan doesn't remember' implies that Kaito does, however. And Kokichi's short response is enough of an indicator that Miu can tell he doesn't want to go into detail, which... Fair enough.
So she won't push.] ...Okay. [It's going to be strange, facing Iruma with that knowledge. She can't imagine how he's been dealing with it.]
Can I lay down? [It might be annoying to be this overly cautious with him right now, but the last thing she wants is for him to kick her out--or hell, run off himself.]
'Lying bitch,' huh... [Yeah too late for take backs now. Well, whatever. There's a nod--yeah, she's dry-- and she shifts so she can lay down, turning to face him and tucking her hands underneath her head, feeling the exhaustion of--everything, really, creeping up on her.
Miu studies his face a moment before she reaches out, hesitates, then drops her hand to the bed, fingers curling into the sheets instead.
Honestly, she expected there to be more awkwardness than this. Not that there isn't some, but she doesn't feel nearly as bad as she expected to. The realization makes her sort of laugh and she turns her face away towards the bed, a smile tugging at the corner of her mouth]
Thanks for the vote of confidence. [Her tone is equally flat, sarcasm dripping.
She shakes her head, but falls quiet for a little while, just enjoying the feeling of not being alone, of there being someone beside her. Even if, right now, that person might not like her very much.]
...Hey. Can I touch you? [That's sounds weird when it comes out of nowhere, but her fingers twitch against the sheets again. It's fine if he says no, she half-expects it, but that desire for some physical connection is still rooted deep in her heart.]
[ He'd rather be alone at the moment, just because he's had no chance to actually let himself come down from this and let his thoughts carry him. He's had to keep himself together, more effort taken on that.
Her question should be more of a surprise than it is, but his body tenses again at the question of it. ]
Only if you're willing to see more than you should.
I won't see anything if you don't want me to. [She'd promised that too, once upon a time, that she wouldn't use her powers to see into his mind to learn the truth.
It occurs to her that she should start teaching him ways to block these things, just in case someone with her similar abilities but far less kind were to appear.
Still, she tentatively reaches out, just to touch his hand at first.] I just... want to do this. It's weird, because usually I don't want to touch people or have them touch me, but... With you it doesn't seem so... Bad. I guess. [Which implies that usually it is bad.]
[ He holds his breath when the contact comes, eyes shutting like he expects her to look anyway. She might have said otherwise, but right now he's not exactly stable to not have thoughts and memories bleeding out. ]
Careful, Hinasaki-chan, or I'll have to take that as a confession.
[iu keeps her own mental guards up to keep it all form leaking through-- she does ease it up a little, so tht she can get impressions of his feelings though. It is, however, for purely good reasons though. If he becomes too uncomfortable or panicked, she wants to know so she can put a stop to it before it escalates.
Still, he has her laughing softly.] It's not like that. I like you, despite... Everything. I like you, you're... special. And I don't want to let it go. But it's not like that... [She isn't naive enough to confuse this for something like 'love,' because it's really not like that. She just doesn't know how to actually describe whatever it is.
Her gaze falls to their hands, her thumb idly rubbing a circle against the back of his.] No, it's just... I was-- [How does she describe this?] ...Talked into a lot of bad situations. 'You're so cute, Miu-chan, if you do this or this, I promise to make you famous, I promise you a role in this show; if you don't I'll make sure you never get work again'... Things like that. [A pause and she shrugs with a slight shake of her head.] That's showbiz.
But I can trust you enough to know you won't do that. So, being like this is... I don't know. It's nice. [There's a 'ha' noise.] ...Sorry... It's stupid, I guess.
[ She'll find it's a mess already in that case, like he's suffocating on his own thoughts, that he can't quite grasp at much or put it all in a linear form. He'd been so convinced her leaving was it, after all. ]
You're really weird. [ It's a soft murmur, but she'll also feel the appreciation that he feels with the words as well, along with the faint colour to his cheeks as she says it. He tightens his hand in hers when she talks about being talked into the bad situations though, almost feeling that wave of protectiveness wash over him before he can stop himself.
It isn't made any better by her being in one of the outfits DICE members wore either. ]
Hinasaki-chan, do you want to know why I'm the Ultimate Supreme Leader? [ His voice is soft as he asks, eyes stuck on the ceiling above him. ]
Yeah, I suppose. [She laughs, not about to deny it. 'Weird' is better than 'stupid' or, you know, 'lying bitch.'
The protectiveness she feels from him and the warmth is something she lets herself bask in and marvel at. It's new, it's different; she didn't really ever feel that from anyone before and it has her shifting a little on her side to face him fully.]
...Why? ['Why are you the Ultimate Supreme Leader,' she means, not 'why are you telling me']
[ Well, weird is aimed right at her and Kaito on that board too. Congrats. Even with the emotions showing he doesn't look towards her. ]
DICE. [ He says it softly, perhaps the softest and most meaningful way he's said anything to her. ] DICE was my organisation back home. There were... [ He pauses, hesitates, then continues. ] 10 of us in total. We'd travel around pranking people, committing petty thefts to get by. We only had one real rule: no murder.
[ His mouth twitches. ] I don't know how true it is that they existed to begin with now, but the last I know of, they... [ He trails off, the more he speaks his voice becoming more void of emotion. ]
[She's got a lot of questions right off the bat, but she stays quiet, just listening. The uncertainty and hesitation she can feel isn't purely from a desire to keep this hidden from her, but it seems weirdly like he's not sure of everything himself.
Which is further confirmed by his admittance to not knowing if they existed at all. How could he not know?
But she doesn't question it right now, just gives his hand a reassuring squeeze and waits for him to continue on his own.]
They were probably killed or locked away somewhere if they were real. [ He breathes out. ] Our memories were alterated. Parts were fabricated to fit the setting. I don't even remember if I ever had parents to begin with.
DICE was my family.
[ Which is ... going to make the note left in her apartment a hell of a lot more meaninful later. ]
Saihara-chan's the only one who knows this.
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[Seeing that note later is going to break her, it's fine.
Saihara, and now her. She doesn't really know what to say to all of that, running it through her head over and over. Memories altered in this killing game thing? But why? To make them more cooperative somehow?
She continues to rub her thumb lightly over his knuckles, half in an attempt to soothe him, half as a distraction for herself.]
Thank you for telling me. [Is what she eventually goes with, her voice soft.]
He presumes making things flow better was part of it, but he doubts Shirogane ever predicted he’d take matters into his own hands either. That’s good. Fine. Whatever. ]
Don’t. I already regret it.
[ Because sharing is hard and hopefully she understands from the discomfort that comes with what he says. ]
[Miu can't help but start laughing.] It's too late now, you can't take it back.
[She shakes her head and takes a deep breath, slowly exhaling as she relaxes further.]
Should I reveal something too now? [Truths for truths. She attempts to make the situation a little lighter by adding:] It probably isn't something you should tell Momota-san. He might get scared and never talk to me again.
[ He whines in the back of his throat, shifting until he's flopped over on his front this time -- just like a child. The act is over just as quickly, if only enough that this time he turns his head towards her. ]
So it's something supernatural, huh? How'd you find out about that?
[ At least he seems to be in a sliiiightly better mood now. ]
[She lets go of his hand so he can move how he wants, then hesitates since she's not sure if she should take it up again. At length she decided not to, curling her fingers back into his sheets as she watches him.]
That he's terrified of supernatural things? I mentioned spirits rather off-hand and he looked like he'd, well, seen a ghost. The more I talked about it, the more freaked out he got-- I told hi about the possessed trees. [She closes her eyes briefly and chuckles as she remembers his face] If he ever goes into a forest again around here, I'll be honestly shocked.
[ Well his hand flops down in the middle again anyway, not reaching for her because he's not ready for that yet, but the option is there if she wants to do it again. At least he seems to be laughing at Momota's misfortune anyway. ]
When he first got here, we spent the night in a haunted house. It was a taskboard thing, but neither of us knew it was haunted only that we'd have to spend the night there to get the money.
[ He pauses. ]
Even while being scared he's the type to want to protect people, even if it's not always possible.
[Miu glances at his hand but refrains for right now, listening to him with a light smile.]
Did you actually make it through the night? Ha, I could've let you borrow my camera. [Well maybe not. That camera was the only of its kind and she's not sure she'd trust anyone else to actually use it, but...
His assessment of Kaito has her sighing a little.] He seemed that type of person... It's a little bit of a pain, huh? [But she doesn't really seem to mean it, her tone still light, if a bit exasperated.] He's really... passionate.
We did, more or less. [ He’s smiling as he says it though. ] Even when he’s terrified he’ll still try and protect you , so if there’s any trouble, run right to him, okay?
[ Completely different to what he said about Iruma. ]
[She finds it a bit curious that he tells her to go to Kaito over Shuichi, and she wonders if he's aware how much he's giving away saying things like that.
In the end it doesn't really matter though. They've gotten a bit off topic now, but she nods in agreement.] If he's got that much approval from you... Then yeah, alright. I will.
[Unless it's something supernatural. Then she's pretty sure she's better off on her own.]
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So she won't push.] ...Okay. [It's going to be strange, facing Iruma with that knowledge. She can't imagine how he's been dealing with it.]
Can I lay down? [It might be annoying to be this overly cautious with him right now, but the last thing she wants is for him to kick her out--or hell, run off himself.]
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You weren't supposed to see it. [ He murmurs it, like that helps take any of this back. ] Lay down if you want, you're dry now, right?
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Miu studies his face a moment before she reaches out, hesitates, then drops her hand to the bed, fingers curling into the sheets instead.
Honestly, she expected there to be more awkwardness than this. Not that there isn't some, but she doesn't feel nearly as bad as she expected to. The realization makes her sort of laugh and she turns her face away towards the bed, a smile tugging at the corner of her mouth]
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Thankfully it isn't as awkward because she isn't asking about the wrong things, she isn't pushing him to speak past what he offers up. ]
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[Easier said than done, though, if only because he seems stubborn enough to hold onto that title for her.]
I have to... find something to do with myself now, I suppose... [She mutters more to herself than to him]
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[ It's said flatly though, because he isn't confident in her when he doesn't believe in himself.
He doesn't say anything to the rest though, presuming that if she's talking to herself she won't an answer. ]
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She shakes her head, but falls quiet for a little while, just enjoying the feeling of not being alone, of there being someone beside her. Even if, right now, that person might not like her very much.]
...Hey. Can I touch you? [That's sounds weird when it comes out of nowhere, but her fingers twitch against the sheets again. It's fine if he says no, she half-expects it, but that desire for some physical connection is still rooted deep in her heart.]
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Her question should be more of a surprise than it is, but his body tenses again at the question of it. ]
Only if you're willing to see more than you should.
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It occurs to her that she should start teaching him ways to block these things, just in case someone with her similar abilities but far less kind were to appear.
Still, she tentatively reaches out, just to touch his hand at first.] I just... want to do this. It's weird, because usually I don't want to touch people or have them touch me, but... With you it doesn't seem so... Bad. I guess. [Which implies that usually it is bad.]
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Careful, Hinasaki-chan, or I'll have to take that as a confession.
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Still, he has her laughing softly.] It's not like that. I like you, despite... Everything. I like you, you're... special. And I don't want to let it go. But it's not like that... [She isn't naive enough to confuse this for something like 'love,' because it's really not like that. She just doesn't know how to actually describe whatever it is.
Her gaze falls to their hands, her thumb idly rubbing a circle against the back of his.] No, it's just... I was-- [How does she describe this?] ...Talked into a lot of bad situations. 'You're so cute, Miu-chan, if you do this or this, I promise to make you famous, I promise you a role in this show; if you don't I'll make sure you never get work again'... Things like that. [A pause and she shrugs with a slight shake of her head.] That's showbiz.
But I can trust you enough to know you won't do that. So, being like this is... I don't know. It's nice. [There's a 'ha' noise.] ...Sorry... It's stupid, I guess.
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You're really weird. [ It's a soft murmur, but she'll also feel the appreciation that he feels with the words as well, along with the faint colour to his cheeks as she says it. He tightens his hand in hers when she talks about being talked into the bad situations though, almost feeling that wave of protectiveness wash over him before he can stop himself.
It isn't made any better by her being in one of the outfits DICE members wore either. ]
Hinasaki-chan, do you want to know why I'm the Ultimate Supreme Leader? [ His voice is soft as he asks, eyes stuck on the ceiling above him. ]
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The protectiveness she feels from him and the warmth is something she lets herself bask in and marvel at. It's new, it's different; she didn't really ever feel that from anyone before and it has her shifting a little on her side to face him fully.]
...Why? ['Why are you the Ultimate Supreme Leader,' she means, not 'why are you telling me']
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DICE. [ He says it softly, perhaps the softest and most meaningful way he's said anything to her. ] DICE was my organisation back home. There were... [ He pauses, hesitates, then continues. ] 10 of us in total. We'd travel around pranking people, committing petty thefts to get by. We only had one real rule: no murder.
[ His mouth twitches. ] I don't know how true it is that they existed to begin with now, but the last I know of, they... [ He trails off, the more he speaks his voice becoming more void of emotion. ]
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Which is further confirmed by his admittance to not knowing if they existed at all. How could he not know?
But she doesn't question it right now, just gives his hand a reassuring squeeze and waits for him to continue on his own.]
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DICE was my family.
[ Which is ... going to make the note left in her apartment a hell of a lot more meaninful later. ]
Saihara-chan's the only one who knows this.
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Saihara, and now her. She doesn't really know what to say to all of that, running it through her head over and over. Memories altered in this killing game thing? But why? To make them more cooperative somehow?
She continues to rub her thumb lightly over his knuckles, half in an attempt to soothe him, half as a distraction for herself.]
Thank you for telling me. [Is what she eventually goes with, her voice soft.]
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He presumes making things flow better was part of it, but he doubts Shirogane ever predicted he’d take matters into his own hands either. That’s good. Fine. Whatever. ]
Don’t. I already regret it.
[ Because sharing is hard and hopefully she understands from the discomfort that comes with what he says. ]
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[She shakes her head and takes a deep breath, slowly exhaling as she relaxes further.]
Should I reveal something too now? [Truths for truths. She attempts to make the situation a little lighter by adding:] It probably isn't something you should tell Momota-san. He might get scared and never talk to me again.
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So it's something supernatural, huh? How'd you find out about that?
[ At least he seems to be in a sliiiightly better mood now. ]
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That he's terrified of supernatural things? I mentioned spirits rather off-hand and he looked like he'd, well, seen a ghost. The more I talked about it, the more freaked out he got-- I told hi about the possessed trees. [She closes her eyes briefly and chuckles as she remembers his face] If he ever goes into a forest again around here, I'll be honestly shocked.
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When he first got here, we spent the night in a haunted house. It was a taskboard thing, but neither of us knew it was haunted only that we'd have to spend the night there to get the money.
[ He pauses. ]
Even while being scared he's the type to want to protect people, even if it's not always possible.
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Did you actually make it through the night? Ha, I could've let you borrow my camera. [Well maybe not. That camera was the only of its kind and she's not sure she'd trust anyone else to actually use it, but...
His assessment of Kaito has her sighing a little.] He seemed that type of person... It's a little bit of a pain, huh? [But she doesn't really seem to mean it, her tone still light, if a bit exasperated.] He's really... passionate.
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[ Completely different to what he said about Iruma. ]
He’s an idiot though.
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In the end it doesn't really matter though. They've gotten a bit off topic now, but she nods in agreement.] If he's got that much approval from you... Then yeah, alright. I will.
[Unless it's something supernatural. Then she's pretty sure she's better off on her own.]
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Wtf is that gag tag
the TRUTH
Kills u
A BODY HAS BEEN DISCOVERED.... AGAIN.
good
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idr if i said spoilers before so hardcore spoilers now
smh maybe i didn't want to be spoiled??
Oh my god KILLS YOU
help help i'm being oppressed
u will,be!!
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