[Miu doesn't move at first, watching him. Maybe that's part of why she isn't leaving, because the anger, the lashing out... Maybe, in a way, she thinks she deserves it.
So she does takes a seat on the edge of the canoe, folding her knees in close and folding her arms over them, bowing her head. It doesn't matter. She does deserve his ire, someone's ire, because she can't take it out on herself without it being labeled self-destructive. So she'll take it from someone. He was right, she was selfish.
He was right about a lot of things.
Her fingers clench and unclench around the amulet.] I found my mother. [She repeats herself, her voice sounding hollow as she speaks towards the floor and her knees.] You were right, Ouma-kun. I'm so stupid, and... lying... only hurts more. [Quieter, she repeats:] I'm so stupid.
I convinced myself... it would be okay. That somehow everything would magically fall into place like some kind of movie with its happy endings and everyone coming together again, and everything's forgiven and things are normal. [Her shoulders shake.]
...My mother died. Or, maybe... It's more like she was dead all along...And I didn't want to accept it. I was just holding onto her shadow, trying to convince myself... [She trails off, her words jumbled a little and she shakes her head.] I'm such a child. I wanted to go home so badly, I wanted to see her and save her and it's so stupid. I don't know why they sent me back home. I wish they never had. [Her tone grows harsher as she speaks until she's practically spitting the last words. She was happier thinking everything was going to be fine one day, and now that she knew the truth...]
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So she does takes a seat on the edge of the canoe, folding her knees in close and folding her arms over them, bowing her head. It doesn't matter. She does deserve his ire, someone's ire, because she can't take it out on herself without it being labeled self-destructive. So she'll take it from someone. He was right, she was selfish.
He was right about a lot of things.
Her fingers clench and unclench around the amulet.] I found my mother. [She repeats herself, her voice sounding hollow as she speaks towards the floor and her knees.] You were right, Ouma-kun. I'm so stupid, and... lying... only hurts more. [Quieter, she repeats:] I'm so stupid.
I convinced myself... it would be okay. That somehow everything would magically fall into place like some kind of movie with its happy endings and everyone coming together again, and everything's forgiven and things are normal. [Her shoulders shake.]
...My mother died. Or, maybe... It's more like she was dead all along...And I didn't want to accept it. I was just holding onto her shadow, trying to convince myself... [She trails off, her words jumbled a little and she shakes her head.] I'm such a child. I wanted to go home so badly, I wanted to see her and save her and it's so stupid. I don't know why they sent me back home. I wish they never had. [Her tone grows harsher as she speaks until she's practically spitting the last words. She was happier thinking everything was going to be fine one day, and now that she knew the truth...]